SoCal

Humans are selfish...and i think my main struggle in life will be to live as much for others as possible...and less for myself...right now i give myself a D-. Mainly with how i seek self-gratification and how i treat my family. Lord, please help me.

Now read about my life and comment so i feel good...

I just found out where i am going to be living for this up and coming semester (possibly longer). It is about a mile from my school and even closer to the beach. Which is super awesome. I am going to commandeer Alex D.'s roller blades, or buy my own, and become like the guys from Brink and skate down to the skate park by the shore. Even if there isn't one, haha. I will be living with a widow who has a boy about the same age as me, and she will be making my meals too. Her name sounds Mexican, so i am keeping my fingers crossed for Mexican Food!

I am taking:
English 1: 12:45PM-2:05PM Tuesdays and Thursdays
Math 22: 6:45PM-9:50PM Thursdays
Astronomy 1: 2:15PM-3:35PM Tuesdays and Thursdays
Film Studies 2: 1:15PM-5:20PM Mondays (Film Studies 1 was full)

I am excited about my schedule...I'll let you know how much i really like it in about a month and a half. And i am not sure what i am going to do for a job...but it looks like there are a ton of music stores and restaurants in the area, so i think i will look around for something like that.

My next post should be coming soon and i think i will take Landon up on his suggestion. It will be a sort of autobiography on my life in Arizona this summer. Filled with pictures and descriptions. Hopefully it will be epic and entertaining.

I think Santa Monica by Savage Garden will be my new theme song in life...haha.


<- This is a crazy man from either Santa Monica or Venice that some guy took and put up on Flickr...I have heard about the homeless people there and I am really looking forward to meeting some. But don't tell my mom that...

Constant Renewal

I have been thinking a lot about a lot recently...and i think i came up with a thesis for my Doctorate...haha.

I was talking to my mom about leaving Hawaii recently and i was trying to convey my feelings on the matter...and this kind of relates to my last post...about excitement for new things and how it cancels out the hurt of loosing the old. And it got me to thinking about change, and how humans deal with change.

It seems we as humans like new things, yet at the same time we like consistency. We like to know we have security in a house, yet we like new houses, and new things in our houses. But even apart from superficial things i have noticed this. We (or most people at least) like making new friends, but just as long as we can hold on to those friendships. People don't go around making new friends everyday and dumping the old ones, we appreciate longevity in our relationships. So it is hard for us to break old ties.

Yet this idea of consistency with change also carries over in to the natural world. Nature is always changing, the sunset is always different, yet there are always the same components at play. Such as the sun and the sky and the horizon. A forest might burn down and re-grow, having a new geographical lay out, but it is mostly the same none the less...you have trees, and animals, and bugs, and birds, and dirt...life goes on. Also the same can be said about humans. We are all made up of the same components, each with a nose, eyes, mouth, etc. (you don't have the occasional person popping out wings or a 6th sensing article), but not one in 6 billion looks exactly the same.

I then carried this on even further. I connected it to some of the thoughts i had on time. Time is always moving forward, so the future is always ahead of us, the present is always escaping us, and the past is always behind us. It almost seems as if there really isn't a "now" to speak of, because as soon as you speak it...it is gone. Time is always there, and yet it is always changing.

And what does this all mean? The fact that we are always experiencing newness and yet always holding on to the same things? And it seems that this is like God. God is the same yesterday, today and forever, we have all heard that a million times. God is a constant in our lives. We know we can turn to Him in a time of need and he will be there, always loving, and never failing in that love. Yet, we seem to always be learning more and more about God's character. The God i seemed to know 5 years ago is almost not the same God i know today, but He is. And i think this is where it comes from, this theory of constant renewal, it comes from God. It is like a part of God's character. God remains the same, but he is so vast that we can only get little glimpses of him at a time. Little shiny sparks of love and life, light particles from a beautiful God that will forever amaze us. Yet he has been there all along, waiting for us to witness Him, and it is just that we are tiny little humans, who don't understand the world, and though we try our hardest, it seems we will always be nothing but children, playing in the creation that surrounds us.