Friday, December 18, 2009

Well

and well it should
fall in to place and make you scream
run out the door and stop in time

cause who am i to stop your fun
make you hold tight to what doesn't come
naturally to your heart

feel the best you can and make your stand
to hold up to my futile attempts to bring you
closer to what makes me happy

forgotten and disregarded have i made you
in comparison to my own propaganda
made to ease my own tension

cause who am i to say what you can and cannot do
for you are your own person
and what difference does our love make?

4 comments:

Unknown said...

I like it. Inspiration?

Yet, I probably don't need to ask!

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It's interesting who we become when we are in new surroundings. Like with our families and then close friends then friends we are not that close to then acquaintances then those who are cooler than us then those who are not, etc.

BTW, any attention and flirtation that ze ladies give you are probably directly attributed to your new Mugatu "Derelicte" fashion sense (which a part of me wishes) you have chosen.
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And in response to you:
It's less about me being fake (it's really funny and awkward, and somewhat nostalgic of high school, to talk about these things here) but more so precautionary measure to not becoming that. Which is a fake pastor. Or a pastor who is dumb and not for Jesus, you know?

I was thinking, man, how do I know that I won't become another guy in leadership that screws up and ruins people's lives, that lies for years and years without anyone knowing? And I discovered that I will never really know. That this path is just a really long journey in which I need to watch my every step and pace myself otherwise I'll slip and fall and die, possibly bringing others with me. OH DUDE! LIKE THE GRAND CANYON! AHH!H!H!H!H!H!H!!!!

wow.

So anyway, hello revelation - how ever significant or insignificant.

Well, my brother and sister are beckoning me to decorate gingerbread men with them, so off I go!

Btw, if you do listen to any Christmas song this season, I highly recommend "Christmas is Here" by Mural Guneyman.

Merry Christmas

Unknown said...

http://www.pandora.com/music/song/meral+guneyman+holiday/christmas+is+here

here.

Btw, I have reduced my life down to learning, communication and the arts. That is all I do.

suz said...

Landon and I talked about this I think. It is still so comical (in the best way) that you write poems. I really am going to visit you. I have been insecure about my photographs lately. Thanks for the affirmation mate.

Unknown said...

There must be something God loves about lesbian co-workers. I too, about a month ago, had a great heart to heart with a girl named Monica. Her relatives are/were relatively religious and left her with a bad taste in her mouth toward those who claim to know God. I understand where she's coming from.

It was good, I ended up apologizing to her for all of them and every other Christian she had met that did her wrong because of her homosexuality. I always feel like I'm trying to be Donald Miller when I do that, however, I have come to the realization that it's probably what God wants us to do: show some humility. I guess because that's what Jesus did, and apparently what you have exemplified at work to spark the attention of your co-worker.

That is neat. I feel that I never actually see that happen; I don't always experience the "and they will see your light shining before them and ask you about God" type of thing. I'm glad she asked you about it. I'm glad that you attributed it to God.

Well, I am off to my relatives house for New Year's Eve celebration, then off the Higashi's for their annual party. I hope you are having a great new New Year in Denver.

Take care,
lan